It sounds like the CBD-based medicines are the way to go for Alex, and that got me pretty excited last month when I read (and posted) about them. But after a bit, I realized it still doesn’t really matter. As long as prohibition of cannabis exists in the United States, it won’t matter what options exist, because we can’t get it administered in his group home.
We’re in this awful catch-22. We can’t take Alex home, because we don’t know what, if anything, will stabilize him enough for us to care for him. And we can’t try marijuana, the only medicine that showed any promise for his rage, unless he’s living with us.
The Washington legalization initiatives are spending more time with internal wars than coming together and just pushing for any small step forward. The OCTA here in Oregon looks like it again won’t gather enough signatures, and gets almost no press coverage (I see stories about the CA and CO initiatives, and sometimes about the WA ones, but never ours). Hell, we couldn’t even convince the voters to approve dispensaries when they were put on the ballot in 2010. As I recall, Oregonians favored our current “find a grower or do it yourself” approach by something like 65% to 35%.
I’m really hoping CA gets its initiative passed, but what will that mean for Alex? At a minimum, another two years before Oregon has a chance to move forward.
Sometimes it feels like we have absolutely no control over Alex’s life. Obviously we could try bringing him into our home again, but that’s just not realistic. I feel awful admitting it, I feel like I’ve failed him and there’s some way I could be stronger, but the fact is I know I can’t care for him again unless his rage is completely gone.